The kids have done me in the past couple days. I really just broke down last night. Flint wouldn't quit screaming at me, so I decided to try to take a bath with Galen. I figured if it had all his toys and nothing unusual in it, then maybe he'd take one with me again like he used to. Well, of course not. Instead, he screamed and I couldn't even get him fully wet (just the lower half of him) before he got out of the tub himself and ran off screaming. He wouldn't even play with any of the toys with me. He didn't want to come back in the bathroom even.
So I laid there crying. While Galen and Flint were screaming. Mazzu was watching them, so they were safe. I started to get out of the tub when Mazzu was trying to bring Galen in the bathroom to see me (to see if he'd calm down if he saw mommy), but he screamed and wouldn't let daddy bring him in.
So as I was about to come out of the bathroom, I heard Galen say "I want my mama" (that's the longest sentence I've heard in 8 months). I came to get him, he climbed off Mazzu, then screamed and crawled back on Mazzu (wouldn't let me even touch him). He wanted a pacifier, so I handed him the one that I cut the tip off of last night (in an effort to see if the "no tip means less satisfying sucking" theories other mom's have would work on him). He cried still, so I was handing him a real one, right as he finally passed out on Mazzu. Mazzu brought him into the room with me a few mins later and he slept all night, finding only one pacifier in the bed once and then in the morning.
Flint continued to scream for awhile once she was brought to bed too, but they eventually slept. I cried.
I can't even take care of my children's hygiene issues. Neither kids enjoy baths anymore. Galen's teeth are getting bad from the pacifiers and he refuses to allow me to brush his teeth anymore. So, I'm emotionally worn out right now.
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